control freak.

So i'm back up in ventura for part of the break. so strange. i assume i will call this home, because family is here. but at the same time, friends and family are in murrieta, which is home too. and riverside? i would say school is more permanent of a home for me. so weird how life changes huh? i am thankful, however. I have learned that change brings challenges, but with challenge, life becomes meaningful.

Control is hard to give up. It is the act of domination. When things are out of my control, i tend to freak out. It is something i am learning to let go. I need to let God be in control, and rule EVERY aspect of my life. It's so hard though. It means setting myself aside. Definitely a struggle. But i know when the Lord is in control, all things i worry over will fall into place. I guess letting go would allow God to really work. This sounds like a good idea.

One thing i have been interested in learning about lately is wisdom and truth. I feel like i should know more exactly what i believe; know the truth. Without absolute truth, there is no hope. Relativism has nothing to cling to. I want to know more of God's Word, that which is absolute truth.

It's crazy this semester is over and Christmas is here. I've been so busy and haven't allowed myself time to reflect on the meaning of Christmas. I really like the song, "o come o come emmanuel." I am so thankful we can rejoice in the Lord's return for His people.

ps. i love to bake, especially around Christmas time..mmhmm!