control freak.

So i'm back up in ventura for part of the break. so strange. i assume i will call this home, because family is here. but at the same time, friends and family are in murrieta, which is home too. and riverside? i would say school is more permanent of a home for me. so weird how life changes huh? i am thankful, however. I have learned that change brings challenges, but with challenge, life becomes meaningful.

Control is hard to give up. It is the act of domination. When things are out of my control, i tend to freak out. It is something i am learning to let go. I need to let God be in control, and rule EVERY aspect of my life. It's so hard though. It means setting myself aside. Definitely a struggle. But i know when the Lord is in control, all things i worry over will fall into place. I guess letting go would allow God to really work. This sounds like a good idea.

One thing i have been interested in learning about lately is wisdom and truth. I feel like i should know more exactly what i believe; know the truth. Without absolute truth, there is no hope. Relativism has nothing to cling to. I want to know more of God's Word, that which is absolute truth.

It's crazy this semester is over and Christmas is here. I've been so busy and haven't allowed myself time to reflect on the meaning of Christmas. I really like the song, "o come o come emmanuel." I am so thankful we can rejoice in the Lord's return for His people.

ps. i love to bake, especially around Christmas time..mmhmm!

remind me i'm alive.

so i am currently filling out an application to work at this summer camp next summer. i'm kinda nervous but i really think it would be a cool opportunity and would teach me alot...


so there are 5 songs that i believe are a must have for this christmas season:
1. Your Love Is Extravagant- The Almost
2. Carol of the Bells- Thrice
3. Do You Hear What I Hear- Copeland
4. O Come O Come Emmanuel- Sufjan Stevens
5. O Holy Night- Shane and Shane

take a listen. you won't be disappointed.

one last thought. i've been wondering lately why we try so hard to cling to all that wont last. i am trying to be more intentional, and to live with purpose, for the things that really matter. i would love to be held accountable.

12.3.08

i miss hope. she was supposed to be my roommate. however, her phone calls are just as good.

hello.

i decided it was time to participate in this blogger-ish thing. it sounds like a good time. :)


-hillary